I woke up with a heavy heart, bleeding deep inside me and I checked for reasons but found none. here i am wondering: how possible is it for one to be happy the previous day before bed and wake up feeling like the world has come crashing right at your feet.....(Let me Roll back to the previous day)
SUNDAY: was really exciting for me cos i had a "date" with a guy i met sometime ago.it has been scheduled and postponed ten times over and finally I decided to give him a chance..as much as i really lack patience when it comes to waiting for a man.he somewhat proved me wrong..he waited 2 hrs for me...
I remember stepping into the "Restaurant" with a mouthful of apologies but was being cut off with a peck in the cheek saying its alright..u r worth the waiting..so much for being pretty..
I never had that much stare like i got not even when i was on stage contesting for a beauty pagentry..lil wonder y?..we got gisting and i threw D question @ him..
..............what do u want from me? looking at him straight in the eyes. he stuttered,stammered and responded " what do u think i want"? and i couldn't help bt chuckle loud..now, this guy is something..i didnt know what else to say so i kept mute and just glanced when possible.
we got to see a movie which was quite exhilarating and refreshingly cool @ d time. it kept me going and took me off some disturbing issues bugging my mind.....
......1.Do i really like him?
......2.Can i hang on as much as im expected to?
......3.How long will this seemingly relationship work?
......4. Does he deserve a chance?
But the truth of it all was i had no answer to all this..
The movie ended and we strolled, holding hands and cracked up to a joke he said..and all eyes seemed to be fixated on us..i am sure what could be going through that head of theirs will be...
What in the world is this girl doing with a white guy?
Hmmm, yeah..i had a date with him but im not bothered by the color of his skin or the fact that he comes form a different world other than mine..it lies in the individual..I held my head high and we walked pass. we said our goodbyes and fixed a date for another hang-out and that made my day conventionally..
I got home and was on the phone for hours chitchatting, quite hilarious and felt exhausted not to boredom but for fits of laughter based on the funny stories being told..I have never laughed so hard in a while.. That sure completed my Day and i slept peacefully, content, looking forward to a beautiful week...
MONDAY: My alarm rang and i felt choleric and that was the beginning of "D BAD DAY" for me..i happened to snap @ everyone that came along my path, i felt easily irritated for no just cause.I just wasnt cheerful and though they tried hard to make me be, i couldn't give in... thoughts were fizzling through my brain and i couldn't help but wonder where and how it all started..
....1. did i have a bad dream? could driving in the dream be described "bad"? now i wish i knew any dream interpreter..
....2. Can over excitement get to u?
all this questions kept haunting me and i had no answers to them.
During the course of the day, i knew i just couldn't continue like this. i had to keep my head back on track and i remembered my love for good Soul music..the kind that gets to u and makes u remember the good times one has had in times past... i plugged my earpiece to my phone and did justice to it and Boom Boom, i was my cheerful self again.
I know God cannot bring problems to his children without paving way for solutions to come forth. I was cash trapped and that weighed me down lots.bt i rightly knew what makes me tick and i got right to it and the transformation happened... Thank God for Music..
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